Circle of Reason

i loved you 
like water
like the grass
like liquid mercury
inside of blown glass 

i loved you
like soft snow
and meditations,
like you were
the chosen one 

i loved you
inside cages
on rooftops
where lilies grew
through rock quarries 

i loved you
innocently like lambs,
openly like rain clouds
demanding the
sun come out
i loved you.

i loved you
like disease accustomed to,
like rabid dog bites
oozing with foam
because the pain
had become my home. 

i loved you
somewhere in the distance,
like tart lemons
and bitter beer faces,
i loved you,
and then i loved another.

i loved another,
like the same as you,
same habits,
same stench,
same brick walls,
trapped inside the absence. 

i loved another,
like more tears on baby cheeks,
more bruises on scraped knees,
like open wounds
and belly screams on
roller coaster rides. 

i loved another,
and then i loved me.
i loved me,
like acceptance,
and purity,
wholesomeness,
and mistakes, 
like wistful memories,
and regrets,
like fading sunsets. 

i loved me,
like imperfection,
and joyful smiles,
like yearning
and fighting,
constantly running,
to keep from hiding. 

i loved me,
now i love them.
i love them
like learning,
like figuring it out,
and compassion. 

like accepting the after lash
of my actions.
i love them,
like hope
like understanding choices,
like intent of thought,
like harsh truth,
from singing voices.

i love them,
because i loved you,
who taught me to love another,
until i learned to love me,
so i could love them.

copyright @ dbv publishing 2010